The Stages of Mentality

     My mental status is someting one can only guess about!  Even I cannot understand what I mean by things or why I sometimes do the things I do.  I have a few different mental cases in my hand at the same time...

Case One : The Fun State of Mind

     My fun side is often revealed during school among friends and also family.  I show this side very often at home, mostly on the weekends when I dont have much to do.  Believe me, boredom brings out your "cabin fever" condition. (Or maybe it is "house fever.")  What I usually do is either act stupid around my sister, who acts stupid all the time, (she can't help it...) or I give smart replies to people's questions and comments.  I do whatever I want to during this state of mind, but that all depends on what my limits are around me.  I usually just do things with my sister, Sarah, and other peeps that I deem worthy to call friends. (This is only because I have had many "friends" betray or drop me.  For instance, I thought I had a good friend.  Dustin, who I thought was my best friend, all of a sudden just stopped talking to me, started to avoid me, etc.  True friends are so hard to come by anymore.  It's like I repel them...  Oh, Well...)

      Symptoms :

                    Smiles a lot around friends and laughs.  Tries to make others laugh and makes jokes just in case.  Doesn't care at the time of what others think (although, at many other times, feels as if almost all talk about him in a bad way constantly.)  Always jokes about "The Voices."

Case Two : The Hateful State of Mind

     This part of me is revealed usually when my brother has done yet ANOTHER thing to me or my mom to piss either me or her off!  I also get this way when I have had a very bad day at school.  This includes the nitpicks from all of those Hard-Core Christian Preps and Wiggers, saying that I am a Satanist!  Who the hell said anything about me?! I would really love to know!  Who says this shit about me?!  I never say anything as Bull Shitty as that!  Aaaaaaaaargh!  ......... Okay, all better now.  where were we?  Oh yeah, that's right!

     Symptoms :

                    Frowns.  Doesn't really think that many things are funny.  Snaps at anyone in the way.  Doesn't want to do a lot of things with others.  Whole day is ruined, acts like this for the rest of the day.  Starts to complain about what happened.  Hates all at the time.

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